I'm getting excited about life again! The future holds promise again. I think God is just letting me rest assured. He's telling me to do more general thinking, not to get too worried and just to survive today the best I can. It's nice to feel comfortable again.
I have plans for the future, but nothing that's more than next fall. After that, things are still up in the air. I almost feel better about that, I have plans and goals, but nothing that if i don't achieve it by a certain date it'll be the end of the world.
Ok, I kinda lied:
I used to want to get married by age 21/22 and now I'm like WOW! that is too soon. That is so close, it's scary! I don't really think that's a great marriage age anymore. Whenever is fine. Maybe even never is fine, i'm getting to be more apathetic...even though i really want a boyfriend. That's beside the point.
The goal i still want by a certain age is to buy a house. I think it's wise to own by the time i'm 25 or 26. I don't want to waste time renting, and i don't think i want to move around forever like all my siblings have been doing. That would suck! I want to start making my own home as soon as possible after i move out of my parents' house. We were talking about renting to own a home and i think it's really smart! I would definitely pursue that. And even if i just would fix it up and sell it down the road, a roof over my head with a lock on the door sounds good to me! I'm so pumped for the day i know i can look into my own house. It's the only feminist "do things on my own" thing i have, buying a house while i'm single & young.
I also am excited for a small possibility to display and sell my photos! I'm going to pray about it more than get excited, cause i just want an opportunity for someone to like my work that's not related or obligated in any way. I mean i don't really expect any of my friends or family to be able to say "Alicia, you suck at this don't go into it." but if i showed them my paintings i would hope they'd say don't do it. Hopefully photography is a little more realistic, haha.
Those are my current thoughts. I can't wait to buy a house, i want a boyfriend but can definitely wait to get married unless for some reason the timing is perfect, and i just got comfortable leaving the future up to somebody else : )
