One thing I really love about Bloomington, late on those clear, biting winter nights you can actually see stars. That has made arriving in Bloomington after driving all the way home day after day for all these months slightly bearable.
Funny, the timing of this whole thing. I wanted to go to Paris with school, and I'll just be honest, I didn't have all these friends then. A year and a half later, after so many important people have been added into my life, and I am so blessed to have them there...I leave.
I've been so blessed by the many prayers, gifts, and send-offs of so many people. Today it had me thinking, this wouldn't be so hard if I didn't have so many funny, brilliant, loyal, caring, AWESOME people in my life...
I can't stop clasping my fingers together, and resting them on my head, to breathe, - this is really hard...
But the timing here, then is funny. This would've been far easier back in 2008 or 2009, when not all these wonderful people were in my life. Though these wonderful people have helped prepare me, and even propel me towards this.
I made a joke today that you have to leave for six months to find out people love you, but I was partially serious in that I don't think I've ever felt so loved in my entire life.
So a big piece of my heart will definitely be left in the cities, [mostly Minneapolis] with such great friends.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thursday, February 03, 2011
The "Who Cares?" Phase
Every time I get over wanting a relationship, I have this realization. Or maybe that makes it sound too dramatic. Simply, I hit a point when I think, I don't want one.
They make me nervous. Being too hasty about them is a recipe for disaster.
And every time I've gone in and out of this haze (if I can call it that) of wanting a relationship, I realize it wouldn't be a good time. I usually wonder when would, then but...it's a nice feeling to not need one. Who cares!
I should also warn that this part of the cycle, the "who cares" usually lasts a very short period of time. It's nice, while it does.
I'm a firm believer in being a person that can stand on my own two feet, before I try to mess up someone else's life, or involve them in my mess, haha (maybe a good place to start next time I think I want a relationship...hmmm). I know right now, embarking on this crazy section of my life, I'm gonna learn a lot. Being young is not only the perfect time to go do something crazy like this, but to be SINGLE!
They make me nervous. Being too hasty about them is a recipe for disaster.
And every time I've gone in and out of this haze (if I can call it that) of wanting a relationship, I realize it wouldn't be a good time. I usually wonder when would, then but...it's a nice feeling to not need one. Who cares!
I should also warn that this part of the cycle, the "who cares" usually lasts a very short period of time. It's nice, while it does.
I'm a firm believer in being a person that can stand on my own two feet, before I try to mess up someone else's life, or involve them in my mess, haha (maybe a good place to start next time I think I want a relationship...hmmm). I know right now, embarking on this crazy section of my life, I'm gonna learn a lot. Being young is not only the perfect time to go do something crazy like this, but to be SINGLE!
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