Ever realize you have headphones in, but aren't listening to anything? Nor were. Hmm...remedy, please!
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Band: The Swell Season
Album: Strict Joy
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The title the album is ironic, because I had such a horrible week. I felt so down in the dumps, so discouraged, so bored, so stagnant, and so drained. So not myself. So disillusioned with life. I am not that way at all; stupid daily tasks can be found enjoyable. I don't know what it was, but this week...
And so yesterday, I decided today was going to salvage the week. And maybe it didn't save the whole week, but it was a nice redemption of my typical spirit versus the shadowed one I donned this week.
Today, I felt the Lord. I found amusement. I found beauty. I shared great company. I laughed so much. I was embraced. I was seen for who I am. Today was so much better than what the week would've had it be.
If I stop to think about it, I'm slightly amazed by potlucks. I mean, you go to a party and a good amount of attendees brought a dish? Wow. That's kinda cool. Seems stupid, and so obvious, but to take your time energy and resources to feed a bunch of people [like me who could only partake], it's just cool. I tend to believe in the good in the world too much, then get discouraged when it fails to be present. But something as simple as a potluck, is really cool to me.
Tonight, I thought to myself, I never get to see my 3 pseudo-roommates together anymore. Tonight, they all stood in front of me, and just being around those ladies brings me joy! They're spectacular.
I don't know where I'd be without laughter. As horribly cliche as it sounds, it's healing. When I'm with people that find the same amusement in the same stupid, or pointless, or witty things that I do, - I don't know what else to say. That is my favorite thing. What is an argument? What is a competition? What is being the best but being it alone? Wasteful. Laughter is where it's at.
O Holy Night! I continue to love my church more and more, every sunday, and every day that I long and wait for sunday! That place is so awesome. I can't be more creative in explaining it, because the experience says it all. I find it hard to go to a service there and not be provoked to some sort of personal revelation. I am so thankful for the effect that place - those people! have had on my life!
Long lay the world, in sin and error pining,
Til He appeared, and the soul felt its worth!
What a day.
