Yesterday, I got a really awesome fortune cookie, that gave me a [stupid, irrelevant] boost that I really needed. It said "Rarely do great beauty and great virtue dwell together as they do in you". Of course, I don't believe that's anywhere close to true, but it's nice to know the cookie gods thought that of me!
Some people take their sophomore effort a little too lightly. They act like now they've made it big, they just get to be a little more free...and they blow it. I also tend to have high expectations after a fabulous debut album! But is that unacceptable? Am I holding young artists to too high a standard? I think not. (on that note...)
So I'm back to what feels like square one: I don't know if I'm going to be finishing my degree at the U, or if I'll be finishing it any time soon at all! Talk about failing at my sophomore effort. I'm so frustrated. I don't often get ambitions for big things, but I have an ambition to get this degree and it has just been a roller coaster ride ever since high school! Now that I know what this is what I really want, it seems like it's impossible.
Contradictory to that (on a different note), there are times when you realize something's not worth it, and it's all wrong...then even though it's hard to swallow at first, it eventually pans out and you can laugh about it. Not sure I can laugh about it yet, but I know I will...when all the times I made a fool out of myself don't still make me want to die. Haha. Stupid stupid stupid woman...
That's both the fun and the frustration of life; the making a fool out of yourself and the not knowing where you're going. Both can be fun, and both can be frustrating. In my opinion, a large part of wisdom is figuring out how to handle both of those things with grace. Not that I think one can ever fully figure out...but, hey, I'm too young to know the rules.
("Love is Hard" by James Morrison = one of few songs I actually like so far on this album...I am disappointed J-M...disappointed)
I'm working on figuring things out, anyways.
