A year ago I was sure this year would be better, as the previous one wasn't my favorite. This week, when I began to think about how I felt about 2014, in summation it also wasn't my favorite.
Usually I write some sort of "Year in Review" post about all the highlights, but I feel like this year just wasn't what I wanted it to be; my life wasn't what I wanted it to be. I didn't really live up to making it what I wanted to make it; doing what I wanted to. Some things yes, so I can't say it was an all-around failure, but I think I can say it was another tough year (then again, maybe its end is coloring it as a whole).
Maybe there were some lessons learned, or something to be gained - I don't even really know what. I feel a little like 2014 was the year of nothing. I have blinked and a whole year has gone by. Things I'd eagerly awaited came and went. Things unexpected came and went. Life was lived. In retrospect, it was sort of an underwhelming year. Which is more than was said for 2013, which I think I remember having been quite ready to be done with.
I suppose in some way that determines any possible new year's resolutions - which the only one I remember even having, I managed to maintain: no new TV shows for a year. I could have also been more intentional and so much closer with the Lord this year, but if it wasn't for some clear lessons in His steadfastness, I'd say I kind of completely blew that one. I did a lot of healthier things for a while, but also wasn't as healthy as I'd have liked to have been.
So it is in spite of the slight grump in my demeanor tonight that I close 2014, and again look forward in anticipation to what another year of life may hold. It is another time to begin afresh and so with even a glimmer of hope, may yours be one that is abundantly blessed, and new in as many ways!
