I need to get an oil change.
I need to take a shower.
I need to start packing to move.
I need to apply for student loans (ha!)
I need to never play tetris again, lol.
I need to get a 3rd job.
I need to kick this dang cold/flu thing!
I need to not care.
I need to apply some chapstick to my poor broken lips.
I need to not think about this list, and yet fulfill all of it.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
My Crazy Dog
I love my dog. She is totally and completely ridiculous! She has so much personality, it's constantly making me laugh. She misses me a lot when I'm gone, so when I come home she gets really excited and she'll make these little noises that kind of sound like a mixture of growling and howling. Sometimes they're really long too and it's just hysterical.
So tonight I go out to return a movie and pick up some sudafed (sp?), I was gone not even 20 minutes. I come in the door and she comes bounding down the stairs, she's wiggling around like a little bull, rubbing her face on me (it's her latest thing). It was adorable, but I was wondering why she was so excited if she'd barely even noticed me leave. I go up to my room, and my garbage is all torn up. I love my dog, but I do not love her separation anxiety, haha. She always chews garbage, but come on I wasn't even gone for 20 minutes! How could I not take her with me when I move out?
So tonight I go out to return a movie and pick up some sudafed (sp?), I was gone not even 20 minutes. I come in the door and she comes bounding down the stairs, she's wiggling around like a little bull, rubbing her face on me (it's her latest thing). It was adorable, but I was wondering why she was so excited if she'd barely even noticed me leave. I go up to my room, and my garbage is all torn up. I love my dog, but I do not love her separation anxiety, haha. She always chews garbage, but come on I wasn't even gone for 20 minutes! How could I not take her with me when I move out?
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Might Be You
Staring at my ceiling,
Choking back this feeling,
Rounding off ends,
That pierced me,
Standing in the corner,
Staring at the walls,
As every tear falls,
On my feet,
Blinding light,
Upon me preys,
Of streaming rays,
Through open windows,
Stare at the ceiling,
Choking feeling,
Swallowing bits,
Of our breaking,
Going crazy,
Dancing in the kitchen,
Home in my skin,
For one time,
Staring at the ceiling,
Can't ditch this feeling,
Something's missing,
Might be you.
Monday, December 22, 2008
16...ish Things You May Or May Not Know
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
16 things you may or may not know about me.
1. Despite the fact that I hate musEditicals, I want to write one set in a grocery store. I love going to the grocery store, and I think it's the perfect setting to provide all kinds of intrigue, and of course necessary humor.
2. I push my nose in when I think, sometimes. I used to do it more than i do now, and if i do, it's without knowing. Sometimes it's pushing, sometimes i just rest my finger there...it's strange.
3. I still sleep with my baby blanket. Not for necessity, just out of habit i guess. I never thought about how odd that is until now.
4. I've broken my wrist twice in my life (thus far, knock on wood), once in 4th gr, and once in 7th grade. I'll tell you the story sometime, if you'd like. I like the stories.
5. There is a guy i like, ooooo mysterious :P
6. I have a passionate hatred towards mini-vans (white ones the most, but all of them), and roller backpacks (how lazy can you possibly get?). If you need further explanation, i will do my best.
7. I love to journal. I buy only ones that are predominately green; the color, not eco-friendly. Yes, i'm...colorist (?haha?) when it comes to buying my journals.
8. I kind of think a little piece of my heart breaks off and dies when something I've written (be it a poem, a blog, a paper, etc.) gets misplaced forever. I have horrible memories burned into my brain of computer crashes and the like.
9. I hate not getting to say goodbye. I mean not getting a chance to say an official goodbye, and particularly when I don't feel the timing's right. I, also, have horrible recollections of this etched in my memory.
10. There are a grand total of (approx.) 4 places I HAVE TO SEE before i die or i will negotiate with God to be reincarnated just to see them: Paris, France - Ireland (any and all of it!) - Santorini, Greece (it's one of the isles, & it is speckled with my favorite color) - the four corners, as lame as that sounds i really want to be in 4 places at once! There are probably others, but I forget them.
11. If ever i should see enough money to own one, (even though i think i'd feel guilty) i would love to own an audi...preferably the quattro TT. I'd have to learn how to drive stick, well, finish learning gears 3, 4, & 5.
12. I have a fear that Coldplay will break up or call it quits before i get to see them in concert. Another thing i HAVE to do in my life!
13. I want to name my children horrible things that have a short version that's not so painful; just because I think it'd be fun. Haha. I don't usually like to inflict pain on people :P
14. I love to nap! I fall asleep easier during the daylight hours than i do at the end of the day. It's the only way I can truly get my brain to shut off other than those sitcoms that are so bad no one watches them so they're on during the day.
15. I hate spiders. I am so scared of them, i can't even kill them. Although, i will if I am my own last resort, because they cannot be left alive. Also, they can't be thrown in the garbage, only the toilet and flushed. I am probably ocd about spiders, they're nast.
16. There's not really a whole lot of stuff that i'm afraid to divulge about myself. I am very open, and that often leads to me telling people things that are either in the category of too much information, or completely irrelevant.
17. I don't like being limited, and therefore: I think Ansel Adams is brilliant!
16 things you may or may not know about me.
1. Despite the fact that I hate musEditicals, I want to write one set in a grocery store. I love going to the grocery store, and I think it's the perfect setting to provide all kinds of intrigue, and of course necessary humor.
2. I push my nose in when I think, sometimes. I used to do it more than i do now, and if i do, it's without knowing. Sometimes it's pushing, sometimes i just rest my finger there...it's strange.
3. I still sleep with my baby blanket. Not for necessity, just out of habit i guess. I never thought about how odd that is until now.
4. I've broken my wrist twice in my life (thus far, knock on wood), once in 4th gr, and once in 7th grade. I'll tell you the story sometime, if you'd like. I like the stories.
5. There is a guy i like, ooooo mysterious :P
6. I have a passionate hatred towards mini-vans (white ones the most, but all of them), and roller backpacks (how lazy can you possibly get?). If you need further explanation, i will do my best.
7. I love to journal. I buy only ones that are predominately green; the color, not eco-friendly. Yes, i'm...colorist (?haha?) when it comes to buying my journals.
8. I kind of think a little piece of my heart breaks off and dies when something I've written (be it a poem, a blog, a paper, etc.) gets misplaced forever. I have horrible memories burned into my brain of computer crashes and the like.
9. I hate not getting to say goodbye. I mean not getting a chance to say an official goodbye, and particularly when I don't feel the timing's right. I, also, have horrible recollections of this etched in my memory.
10. There are a grand total of (approx.) 4 places I HAVE TO SEE before i die or i will negotiate with God to be reincarnated just to see them: Paris, France - Ireland (any and all of it!) - Santorini, Greece (it's one of the isles, & it is speckled with my favorite color) - the four corners, as lame as that sounds i really want to be in 4 places at once! There are probably others, but I forget them.
11. If ever i should see enough money to own one, (even though i think i'd feel guilty) i would love to own an audi...preferably the quattro TT. I'd have to learn how to drive stick, well, finish learning gears 3, 4, & 5.
12. I have a fear that Coldplay will break up or call it quits before i get to see them in concert. Another thing i HAVE to do in my life!
13. I want to name my children horrible things that have a short version that's not so painful; just because I think it'd be fun. Haha. I don't usually like to inflict pain on people :P
14. I love to nap! I fall asleep easier during the daylight hours than i do at the end of the day. It's the only way I can truly get my brain to shut off other than those sitcoms that are so bad no one watches them so they're on during the day.
15. I hate spiders. I am so scared of them, i can't even kill them. Although, i will if I am my own last resort, because they cannot be left alive. Also, they can't be thrown in the garbage, only the toilet and flushed. I am probably ocd about spiders, they're nast.
16. There's not really a whole lot of stuff that i'm afraid to divulge about myself. I am very open, and that often leads to me telling people things that are either in the category of too much information, or completely irrelevant.
17. I don't like being limited, and therefore: I think Ansel Adams is brilliant!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Peace
My dog lays snoring on my feet,
The comfort of relief is sweet,
Rest my head,
Close my eyes,
As every part of me sighs,
Swallow, deep breaths,
Tingles all over like little deaths,
Of the stress that has been weighing my head,
Down onto my shoulders like a ball of lead,
I pause thought,
Relish in the breathing,
Oh just to be,
To be and not do,
To be and not worry,
Comfort in knowing there is an intermission,
That I no longer need permission,
Distant sounds cannot faze me now,
For I have stumbled upon something grand,
Something beautiful as tiny crystals of sand,
Falling through the fingers of your hand,
I have found peace,
I wallow in it,
I bathe in it,
It is my bath,
It is my garment,
It is my soft bed at eternal day's end,
It is like the warmth of the smile of a friend,
I have found peace so dear,
I have finally found it when it was so near.
The comfort of relief is sweet,
Rest my head,
Close my eyes,
As every part of me sighs,
Swallow, deep breaths,
Tingles all over like little deaths,
Of the stress that has been weighing my head,
Down onto my shoulders like a ball of lead,
I pause thought,
Relish in the breathing,
Oh just to be,
To be and not do,
To be and not worry,
Comfort in knowing there is an intermission,
That I no longer need permission,
Distant sounds cannot faze me now,
For I have stumbled upon something grand,
Something beautiful as tiny crystals of sand,
Falling through the fingers of your hand,
I have found peace,
I wallow in it,
I bathe in it,
It is my bath,
It is my garment,
It is my soft bed at eternal day's end,
It is like the warmth of the smile of a friend,
I have found peace so dear,
I have finally found it when it was so near.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I had a Quirky Day
Today was an interesting blah-zay (sp?) day. I definitely waited til the last minute to function, seeing as I got home from Margaret's at about 2:15 (it's like the good old days...). So i pretty much took a shower and went straight to my final, with of course random activities in the middle that are not of interest, such as getting dressed.
I go, late of course, or shall I say, later than I should have to allow time for parking, but i find someone brushing off their car. She's almost finished, good since i have about 2 minutes to spare! I flick on my signal, wait patiently. I didn't want to be late, but I didn't put in much effort to being on time either...oops. She finishes, gets in her car, sits there for a minute before turning it on. Then sits some more, then looks at me (not waving me off or anything), then proceeds to light up a cigarette...i'm like LADY it's freaking finals, you think i'm not on my way to one right now and you're all putzy?? I'm sorry, that's just not cool.
So i was late by like 2 minutes or something, i don't even know. And I actually got 100% on that final :) Who knew, me. Haha, just kidding. But i was happy with that. I had to search out my car in the parking lot because, AS USUAL, i lost it...but luckily it wasn't too difficult. I started him up (my car is a boy, Boomer) and went to brush off. I think i came close to loosing at least 7 of my fingers at least two times today. I couldn't feel them to drive when i got back in the car!
Then I went to work for like a whole hour and a half. 5:30, it's quittin' time. I leave and it took me, no joke an hour to get home from 90th and france! That's what, like 5 miles (the route i take). I never take the freeway home cause it's rush hour, go figure today it might've been a wise idea to just suck it up. I may have gotten home quicker, ha! I was sitting on 98th street for a good 45 minutes...well, it wasn't good. But the random end of the day cherry, my dog ate a whole gallon sized bag of about give or take 2 dozen oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I love my dog, and the stupid things she does. Everyone else was mad, but i just find it funny. That is my quirky day.
Oh, i know, I finished it out by playing musical cars in our driveway so i don't get towed when the plows go by. My car is hanging half way out the driveway. It's still frigid out there.
I go, late of course, or shall I say, later than I should have to allow time for parking, but i find someone brushing off their car. She's almost finished, good since i have about 2 minutes to spare! I flick on my signal, wait patiently. I didn't want to be late, but I didn't put in much effort to being on time either...oops. She finishes, gets in her car, sits there for a minute before turning it on. Then sits some more, then looks at me (not waving me off or anything), then proceeds to light up a cigarette...i'm like LADY it's freaking finals, you think i'm not on my way to one right now and you're all putzy?? I'm sorry, that's just not cool.
So i was late by like 2 minutes or something, i don't even know. And I actually got 100% on that final :) Who knew, me. Haha, just kidding. But i was happy with that. I had to search out my car in the parking lot because, AS USUAL, i lost it...but luckily it wasn't too difficult. I started him up (my car is a boy, Boomer) and went to brush off. I think i came close to loosing at least 7 of my fingers at least two times today. I couldn't feel them to drive when i got back in the car!
Then I went to work for like a whole hour and a half. 5:30, it's quittin' time. I leave and it took me, no joke an hour to get home from 90th and france! That's what, like 5 miles (the route i take). I never take the freeway home cause it's rush hour, go figure today it might've been a wise idea to just suck it up. I may have gotten home quicker, ha! I was sitting on 98th street for a good 45 minutes...well, it wasn't good. But the random end of the day cherry, my dog ate a whole gallon sized bag of about give or take 2 dozen oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I love my dog, and the stupid things she does. Everyone else was mad, but i just find it funny. That is my quirky day.
Oh, i know, I finished it out by playing musical cars in our driveway so i don't get towed when the plows go by. My car is hanging half way out the driveway. It's still frigid out there.
Monday, December 15, 2008
[ Oprah, eat your heart out! ]
Seeing as Christmas is coming (even if it's still 20 days away), I thought I would share with you a list of ... *drum roll* ...
A Few (Just 50) of My Favorite Things
(most definitely in no particular order, because i like random)
1. My family; as chaotic and bickering as they may be, i love them a lot. They are just swell!
2. Music; it jazzes me up, calms me down, inspires me, i am so absolutely in love with music! I could go on forever and say a ton (and probably repeat myself at least 3 times)
3. Getting the giggles, laughter in general; it is probably my favorite activity. If i could get paid to do it...
4. Flurrying December nights
5. A warm cup of coffee or tea
6. Guys; i saw this guy do something just so male the other day that it made me laugh and i thought, i just love guys, they are so ridiculous.
7. Scarves :) i love them, i'd wear them in the summer if it didn't make me feel faint, haha!
8. autumn; i don't care if it's winter, it will always be on the list of my faves.
9. My car; i seriously love my car, it is awesome in more ways than one. I feel very blessed to have a car in such good condition and not to mention so sexy!
10. My adopted family members (aka my in law siblings); they are peachy, and i love them dearly! So far, we are 3 for 0.
11. My madge; she understands my weird trains of thought, possibly better than i do, and probably does the best job of any of my friends when it comes to putting up with my craziness :) she's the poo (that's a good thing, for those that don't know).
12. My dog; she is pretty darn cute, and my baby. Don't hate, i don't dress her, i'm not THAT dog parent
13. gyros; they are yummy, and i felt like putting them here, on the list.
14. My lover (sara, hehe); we are probably the two straightest girls...i promise. lol and yet we have the dirtiest minds around each other! who'd a thunk? after all those years...
15. did i mention coffee yet?
16. Donuts in the snow; they make me really happy.
17. My cousin-friend; haha, the constant debate when referencing Carrie to other people to say "my cousin" or "my friend", more often than not, friend. when we get giggly...LOOK OUT!
18. coffee table books; i am pretty fascinated by them, i want to make one, of what, i don't know.
19. Starbucks (this IS different than coffee in general)
20. HOCKEY; i love hockey, a sport where it's legal to just throw down on ice is ok with me.
21. Bass; i love when the walls are rattling cause of loud bass booming music.
22. Ansel Adams; i would have to say he is my favorite photographer, i like landscape/scenary photography, not to mention BLACK & WHITE!
23. chocolate; i have a serious addiction. that's it. it's awesome.
24. the guitar; bass, electric, acoustic - it is an all around wonderful instrument! i don't know how to play, and would like to know but don't really plan to learn.
25. Converse; i just love them, they are the only shoe i'm passionate about, which is abnormal for a girl, lol.
26. skyscrapers; i don't like necessarily being in them, i just like cityscapes with lots of them.
27. cigars; i like them, deal with it! it makes me feel a little badass, which nothing else does. haha.
28. Scrubs; i freaking love that show, used to hate it...before i got the weird sense of humor i have now.
29. Argyle; it is the greatest pattern in existence. The end.
30. The smell of books; i thought old books at first, then i discovered new books too! I just love the smell of books.
31. Boomer; (aka my car) it is awesome. I love it, driving it makes me happy...we have a bond :)
32. love songs; they are so wonderful and so awful at the same time. haha, i love them, but then i get in these overly sappy, swooning moods...freaks out a majority of people...haha jk, sorta.
33. Photography; i think it is such a great medium, it seems like such a simple concept...but then you try it and realize how hard it is!
34. Frank Sinatra; who doesn't love a man with class? [& a good singing voice]
35. Not studying for finals; haha, i may be the only crazy person who nearly refuses to study. I hate studying, therefore, i love not studying.
36. Movies; i love watching movies, i almost never regret seeing a movie, even if i don't end up liking it. I've rented a disgusting majority of the redbox...haha...
37. People Watching; sounds creepy, but i don't really care. people are so interesting, favorite thing to do at a mall.
38. Reader's Digest; it is the only publication i read regularly other than the paper at work when i'm bored. I love reader's digest, and i get rather excited when the newest issue arrives...i'm a dork...and they have really interesting stuff in there!
39. Toaster Ovens; i don't own one yet, key word here: YET. I feel like they are a brilliant combo of the mircowave (i hate microwave food,...) and the oven (...i hate cooking...).
40. HUGS; i can't believe it took me til 40 to get to hugs! haha, i love hugs. Unless they're awkward...the diagnol hug is just not a hug (one arm over, one under). Other than that, hugs are pure awesome!
41. Overused Words; i know that i do it, i just don't really care. Haha, i like them.
42. Stories; i like telling them, hearing them depends on who's telling them.
43. Silliness; so much fun. I like when i get that level of silliness that is almost intoxicating so i haven't many inhabitions, makes for a good time!
44. Talking; lol, i have chat sessions with my mom when i haven't gotten enough conversation time in
45. Lime Popsicles; I was trying to think of something non-wintry, and for some reason, lime popscicles came to mind.
46. Volleyball; i'm a fan of playing, not as much watching. I miss it a lot still.
47. Clever Rhymes; as in not anything Kanye West does. haha, but i love a good rhyme! probably explains the scarce, but existing rap in my music collection.
48. Twilight; the time of day, not that damn book! UGH! Sorry, i'm so sick of it! Anyways, twilight makes me REALLY happy :) it is my very favorite time of day. It makes my heart swoon [possibly] even more than love songs! It's the way the yellow melts into that deep blue that fades into the black.
49. exaggeration; i use this quite frequently as well & someday i'm sure it will come back to me, lol.
50. Green journals; i have a collection of them started, probably 2 yet to fill...but, i love buying/receiving them anyways & using them!
It got a little difficult towards the end there, but i hope you enjoyed the list of a [random] few of my favorite things! Merry Christmas to all :)
A Few (Just 50) of My Favorite Things
(most definitely in no particular order, because i like random)
1. My family; as chaotic and bickering as they may be, i love them a lot. They are just swell!
2. Music; it jazzes me up, calms me down, inspires me, i am so absolutely in love with music! I could go on forever and say a ton (and probably repeat myself at least 3 times)
3. Getting the giggles, laughter in general; it is probably my favorite activity. If i could get paid to do it...
4. Flurrying December nights
5. A warm cup of coffee or tea
6. Guys; i saw this guy do something just so male the other day that it made me laugh and i thought, i just love guys, they are so ridiculous.
7. Scarves :) i love them, i'd wear them in the summer if it didn't make me feel faint, haha!
8. autumn; i don't care if it's winter, it will always be on the list of my faves.
9. My car; i seriously love my car, it is awesome in more ways than one. I feel very blessed to have a car in such good condition and not to mention so sexy!
10. My adopted family members (aka my in law siblings); they are peachy, and i love them dearly! So far, we are 3 for 0.
11. My madge; she understands my weird trains of thought, possibly better than i do, and probably does the best job of any of my friends when it comes to putting up with my craziness :) she's the poo (that's a good thing, for those that don't know).
12. My dog; she is pretty darn cute, and my baby. Don't hate, i don't dress her, i'm not THAT dog parent
13. gyros; they are yummy, and i felt like putting them here, on the list.
14. My lover (sara, hehe); we are probably the two straightest girls...i promise. lol and yet we have the dirtiest minds around each other! who'd a thunk? after all those years...
15. did i mention coffee yet?
16. Donuts in the snow; they make me really happy.
17. My cousin-friend; haha, the constant debate when referencing Carrie to other people to say "my cousin" or "my friend", more often than not, friend. when we get giggly...LOOK OUT!
18. coffee table books; i am pretty fascinated by them, i want to make one, of what, i don't know.
19. Starbucks (this IS different than coffee in general)
20. HOCKEY; i love hockey, a sport where it's legal to just throw down on ice is ok with me.
21. Bass; i love when the walls are rattling cause of loud bass booming music.
22. Ansel Adams; i would have to say he is my favorite photographer, i like landscape/scenary photography, not to mention BLACK & WHITE!
23. chocolate; i have a serious addiction. that's it. it's awesome.
24. the guitar; bass, electric, acoustic - it is an all around wonderful instrument! i don't know how to play, and would like to know but don't really plan to learn.
25. Converse; i just love them, they are the only shoe i'm passionate about, which is abnormal for a girl, lol.
26. skyscrapers; i don't like necessarily being in them, i just like cityscapes with lots of them.
27. cigars; i like them, deal with it! it makes me feel a little badass, which nothing else does. haha.
28. Scrubs; i freaking love that show, used to hate it...before i got the weird sense of humor i have now.
29. Argyle; it is the greatest pattern in existence. The end.
30. The smell of books; i thought old books at first, then i discovered new books too! I just love the smell of books.
31. Boomer; (aka my car) it is awesome. I love it, driving it makes me happy...we have a bond :)
32. love songs; they are so wonderful and so awful at the same time. haha, i love them, but then i get in these overly sappy, swooning moods...freaks out a majority of people...haha jk, sorta.
33. Photography; i think it is such a great medium, it seems like such a simple concept...but then you try it and realize how hard it is!
34. Frank Sinatra; who doesn't love a man with class? [& a good singing voice]
35. Not studying for finals; haha, i may be the only crazy person who nearly refuses to study. I hate studying, therefore, i love not studying.
36. Movies; i love watching movies, i almost never regret seeing a movie, even if i don't end up liking it. I've rented a disgusting majority of the redbox...haha...
37. People Watching; sounds creepy, but i don't really care. people are so interesting, favorite thing to do at a mall.
38. Reader's Digest; it is the only publication i read regularly other than the paper at work when i'm bored. I love reader's digest, and i get rather excited when the newest issue arrives...i'm a dork...and they have really interesting stuff in there!
39. Toaster Ovens; i don't own one yet, key word here: YET. I feel like they are a brilliant combo of the mircowave (i hate microwave food,...) and the oven (...i hate cooking...).
40. HUGS; i can't believe it took me til 40 to get to hugs! haha, i love hugs. Unless they're awkward...the diagnol hug is just not a hug (one arm over, one under). Other than that, hugs are pure awesome!
41. Overused Words; i know that i do it, i just don't really care. Haha, i like them.
42. Stories; i like telling them, hearing them depends on who's telling them.
43. Silliness; so much fun. I like when i get that level of silliness that is almost intoxicating so i haven't many inhabitions, makes for a good time!
44. Talking; lol, i have chat sessions with my mom when i haven't gotten enough conversation time in
45. Lime Popsicles; I was trying to think of something non-wintry, and for some reason, lime popscicles came to mind.
46. Volleyball; i'm a fan of playing, not as much watching. I miss it a lot still.
47. Clever Rhymes; as in not anything Kanye West does. haha, but i love a good rhyme! probably explains the scarce, but existing rap in my music collection.
48. Twilight; the time of day, not that damn book! UGH! Sorry, i'm so sick of it! Anyways, twilight makes me REALLY happy :) it is my very favorite time of day. It makes my heart swoon [possibly] even more than love songs! It's the way the yellow melts into that deep blue that fades into the black.
49. exaggeration; i use this quite frequently as well & someday i'm sure it will come back to me, lol.
50. Green journals; i have a collection of them started, probably 2 yet to fill...but, i love buying/receiving them anyways & using them!
It got a little difficult towards the end there, but i hope you enjoyed the list of a [random] few of my favorite things! Merry Christmas to all :)
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