I went into this last season of job search, still a little stunned but with my quivering voice declaring, "God will make something of this; He's got me." Key word here: quivering. I was by no means perfect in my understanding of what was happening, or in my belief that God provides.
I heard an insightful teaching from a pastor recently on Abraham. He talked about how often Abe failed at trusting God. God would give him a promise, then there would be what he called a test; an opportunity where he could believe God was good for His word or try to do his own thing. Usually there'd be a do over, and Abraham would get it - the second time, that is.
There are plenty of instances of that in my life for which I could relate to Abraham, and this is one. I learned before about unemployment and God lining something up in the clutch, even having a more extended period of several months of searching. This time however, not wanting the something to be just something, I took my time and did my best to remember to breathe. I had to cut the lines of the proverbial safety net that was a concrete job offer to do something I could do (but why would I learn accounting), and effectively come to the decision that it was worth going after the kind of something that I really wanted.
It has been so refreshing to come on board in an environment that seeks to bring justice and mercy, and to spread the gospel. It's a place where everyone is welcoming and agrees to provide a safe workplace - a majority of who raise their salaries through support. I have a job where I'm encouraged and given space to learn more about issues I have wanted to. My supervisor asked my opinion, and genuinely wanted it. My first week, we invited the holy spirit into our communications meeting! It's been a two weeks full of information, preparation, and a lot of processing, but I'm excited to be exactly where I am.
[This was mostly written at the end of my first week at Cru Inner City.]
